A case of "The Blahs"

So, I woke up today feeling a little blah. Blasé. Blahsarific. Blahzee Blahzerson. I needed to face it. I had a pretty bad case of “I’m not feeling so great about myself, today.” I muddled through my normal routine, but I was just lagging behind. I felt extremely unmotivated and lackluster throughout my daily cleaning and pre-work chores. As a result, and to top it all off, I was 10 minutes late for work. The thing is, though, I didn’t speed or even stress about getting there, either. Pretty bad huh?

It got so bad that for the first hour of my shift, tending bar, I actually started trying to convince myself that my once seemingly attainable dreams were indeed becoming decidedly unattainable. But, then it occurred to me, as I have been hearing often from good people around me, “Negativity begets negativity.” As cheesy this may sound, all of a sudden, I heard a little positive voice in my head, the one we all have, (apparently the volume was up today ;) say to me, “Yes! I can, and, yes, I will.” I felt better as I repeated this — slowly, but surely — relieved and rejuvenated.

For the rest of the night, each time I served someone her Cosmopolitan and cheese plate, or his pork cheeks with Scotch on the rocks, when the those negative thoughts came back, I replaced them with, “Yes! I can, and, yes, I will.” Typing here, now, I feel more ready to do what I need to do, in order to make myself happier in the long run. I am also able to remind myself that I am content with my journey, and I am happy right now.